Saturday, April 5, 2008
Changes
Monday, February 25, 2008
Busy Busy Busy He's Never Too Busy
I met with a dear Pastor this last week and he gave me some good thoughts to chew on. One was, "do not muzzle the oxen." I know, what did he mean by that, it is very simple, Do not try to do the Lord's work for him, rather allow the Lord to do His work. I have such a bad habit of giving it to the Lord and then taking it back. When my children were little I actually made what I called my God Box. I took a shoe box and glued it shut and wrapped it in angle paper. I put a slit in the box top and then put all my request to the Lord in that box. It was to remind me to leave it at His feet and not take it back. I may need to do that once again.
Friday, January 25, 2008
Difficult Decisions Best Intentions
O let my life resemble
more of you each day
Mold me with your Spirit
like the potter molds the clay.
Thursday, January 17, 2008
My Children, my love
Both my daughter Lori and my son Matt are the joy and love of my life. They have both grown into lovely adults of whom I am proud to know and call my children. Both of my kids had struggles as infants. Lori was two months early and Matt was 5 weeks early. Lori is a Type I diabetic and wears an insulin pump. She has been a diabetic since she was 12. I cannot tell you how many nights my husband and I were afraid we would lose her due to insulin reactions. Many times we had to call the paramedics for her. Her pregnancy with our oldest grandson was very stressful on her body. Several times both my husband and I were in tears as we saw her struggle to make sure the baby she was carrying was getting everything it needed. She has become an amazing loving and caring woman who is very bright.
Our son had his struggles at the age of two months when he was hospitalized twice for a premature digestive system. Growing up he always seemed to fly through life. As a toddler he was into everything. As an adult I am amazed at the man he has become. He is an incredible father and husband.
As a mom I am embarrassed to say I did not always do these two beautiful children justice. One of my favorite writers Marjorie Holmes, in her book, "I've Got to Talk to Somebody God," wrote a prayer "I was so cross to the Children." In that prayer she talked about being so cross with her children, so discouraged, so tired and unreasonable and then took it out on them. As a mother, I like her cringe and my heart aches when I remember my bad temper, my impatience and my yelling. Many times I would go and sit beside there bed after they were asleep with tears remembering the confusion and fear in their little eyes. They were helpless at the adult power and control over them. Yet today all these years later, they love me anyway and they have forgiven me. Just as Christ loves me and forgives me.
Lord, I thank you for these beautiful creatures you have brought into my life. I thank you for both of them and for their abilities and uniqueness, for their loving and kind spirits. But most of all Lord I thank you for allowing me to be their mother. Protect my children, Lord. Provide for them, keep them safe, Lord. Protect my son in heart and my daughter in heart. Lord I thank you for them and for the love they give my children. Lord, Let my children always know they are loved and cherished by me.